2013 hasn't been that nice to me. One of my toughest years next to 2002. I'm experiencing a love-hate relationship with my career. I love my job but there are times that the "stress" that comes with it overwhelm me. There are times that I wonder on how long I can stand my career situation. But then I just think how lucky I am to have a job in the first place. To work in one of the biggest bank in the country - not just any bank but a State bank that contributes to the country's progress (I'm that proud!). I also put in my mind that my job right now is just a stepping stone to a more wonderful career.
Another challenge I need to hurdle is failing the compre exam. What a heartbreak! I admit that I lacked preparation. I became overconfident. My only consolation is I still have another chance, last one at that, to do the exam. I only need to retake three subjects. Thankfully. Honestly, I haven't opened my books up to now. What am I waiting for??? I should be reading by now. I promise to it this week! (God help! Equip me PLEASE with focus and motivation.)
The biggest heartbreak this year (hopefully the last) is my siblings are in two different places right now. My brother is somewhere fixing his life. I'm sad that he's temporarily gone but I'm positive that he will come back as a better person. I'm praying for that. As for my sister who's now in US with our mother, I really cried to the max when she left! My bebegurl will be away for 10 months :( She has always been there for me. But it comforts me knowing she's with mama who we haven't seen for 11 years. I'm happy though that they will get to bond. I know in God's time He will allow me and my brother to be with mama also.
Coming home to Tacloban is now a challenge as our house feels empty without my siblings. The only one waiting for me is our dog, Lyka. I'm glad she's here in the house as I have companion. I should not also forget my nephew, Yohance, who I see every weekend. This boy is so talkative already that he never fails to amuse me. Just thinking about him now makes me smile.
Haist. What a tough year but there are still many things to be grateful for. My life isn't that bad as I wrote here. Besides I still got 5 months to make my year memorable and happier :)
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