Well, I have not actually ever
thought of ending my own life. As in never because I believe that life is too
precious to end, except for natural death of course, haha. Although there are
times that I feel so hopeless, I try to manage to survive because I still want
to pursue my dreams and experience living.
So, in order for this blog not to
be wasted... let me share with you one of the lowest points in my life. I now
have the guts to share this because I have moved on already. Well... it’s no
secret that my parents now lead separate lives. At first I was really devastated
because at that time we were also experiencing so many crises. Even though my
parents were telling me not to be bothered and just continue doing well in my
studies, I just can’t help getting affected. I was the eldest and I thought I
had to do something to lessen the burden my family was experiencing. During
that time, I really felt down, lonely, helpless, and hopeless. My family, who
is my source of strength and joy, was in turmoil.
But God is really great. He
really is. Slowly, the crises were fading and we were starting to be a family
again despite my parents’ (physical) absence. My father at that time was
assigned in Borongan and my mother was (still there actually) in the US.
My
parents, regardless of their marital status, are still doing their duties to
us. They continue giving us a comfortable and decent life. They have been able
to provide our needs and more than that at times. They have been supportive of
our dreams. They have showered us with so much love, care, patience, and
acceptance. We have never been the ideal children but they have never given up
guiding and supporting us. We are still lucky and blessed to have them as
parents. Though there are times that I still wish that we could be a complete family again, I instead thank the Lord because He gave us a good father and mother J
My mother would always tell me
that whatever happened between her and my father doesn’t necessarily follow
that it would also happen to me. She dreams for me (for us her children
actually) not only to have a career I love but to also have a happy and
complete family of my own. I am actually looking forward to that day J Someday.
"Life rarely turns out exactly the way you want it to, but you still have an opportunity to make it great. " Life goes on. We should not be stuck in a situation wherein we will not grow. Everyday is a new day. Each day brings new experience to be learned and cherished. So make each day count. I was inspired reading this blog about surviving during tough times . Hope you do too. :)
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